APB: Doers

There are many reasons people get distracted from their good intentions, their work or taking a bath even.  Mine?  My marriage is a mess.  Now I'm not looking for any advice or sympathy or anything on that front.  It is what it is.  I'm looking for the people who are able to get it done (whatever "it" is) even though the world seems to be falling apart around them. The doers of life if you will.

I would've counted myself among them but recently I can't seem to see past the tears.  I am blinded by loneliness and uncertainty.  It takes me all day to do something that should take an hour, a week to do something that should take a day.  I don't have that kind of time to waste.  In 82 weeks I will be 40 and I have compiled this list of things to do before then.  I was so excited two weeks ago when I created it but I barely look at the thing anymore.  That's unusual.  It normally takes two months minimum for me to start slacking off and lose focus.

The thing is, I really want to do this list.  It's a hellava lot more fun than dealing with the failure that is my marriage.  Plus, I have two kids who are the joy of my life.  I want to be a part of their joy not this mopey mom who's always tired.   So, this is my All Points Bulletin to all the doers out there who are willing to help motivate and hold me accountable.  If you truly are the company you keep, it's time I meet some new folks.

I have four free hours a day during the week and am tired of spending half of them crying.  I don't let the rain stop me from driving.  I put on my wipers and go.  I know I haven't cried my last tear but I've got plenty of tissue.  It's time to wipe and do.